Un Crossed

From the beginning I want to differentiate between these two opposing types of Christianity: 1) ESoteric (which means to look inward), and has no literal jesus, disciples or patriarchs, and 2) EXoteric (which means to look outside of ourselves) and teaches the literal and flesh and blood Jesus. It is the EXoteric version of Christianity that is the focus of this website.

In my journey for truth I began to realize that I was rationalizing the contradictions in the Bible. If the Bible is the "word of God" (language cannot hold nor convey truth, but this is another subject in itself) then how can it be so problematic? If God is so powerful as to be able to create the universe then how can he be without power to protect his own word as an original document after he created it? In April 2023 I read Caesar's Messiah: The Roman Conspiracy to Invent Jesus by Joseph Atwill which impacted me so much that I completely abandoned Christianity because I discovered that it is based on a fraud. I cried that day because for me it was like losing a loved one. "It's gone forever from my life!" I felt betrayed. I also found that living a good live and being spiritually minded need not depend on any religion or statement of faith, but can be achieved by looking within ourselves (esoterism) and by living our lives according to Divine Principles, not rules.

This website is not about telling anyone what religion they shd or shd not have, (if any), and I respect everyone's choice to follow their own path. It is not my business to change anyone nor to tell anyone what is right or wrong for them. I am here rather to present information, then let you decide. But most people do not want to see all of the evidence, but only select the evidence that supports their position. So I encourage people to look at all of the evidence, then follow the evidence wherever it leads you. In this regard I recommend the book The Trivium: The liberal arts of logic, grammar, and rhetoric. Understanding the Nature and Function of Language. by Miriam Joseph. This book presents the proper way in which information should be presented in order to create a valid argument, and also lists the fallacies to an argument.(2 page .pdf) In short, it can help us to better evaluate information, and to discern truth and error in what ever form that it is presented to us.

You can become aware in the 5 minutes it takes you to read the following section what it took me years to find out the hard way.

The Christian religion (as it is commonly known today) is based on the greatest fraud ever purpetrated in the history of man: the fraud of a Jewish race. No such race has ever existed. Furthermore, the character of Jesus as portrayed in the NT did not exist. There is no historical evidence to support the existence of either. A famous book was written "The Invention of the Jewish People" by Shlomo Sand, who was the professor of history at the University of Tel Aviv. I had come to my conclusion before I even heard about his book. It is an interesting book which I recommend. Aside from that, consider that Jesus cd not have existed, and this is because the whole basis of the character of Jesus is based on his death, burial, and resurrection, and since it is scientifically impossible for anyone to be dead, buried in a sealed tomb, then after 3 days resurrect himself from the dead within that sealed tomb, Jesus cd not have existed. Further on this point, if the Jewish race did not exist, then the geneologies in Matthew and Luke cd not have existed, and the characters and patriarchs named therein did not exist either.

More recommended reading can be found by clicking the book tab at the top of this page.

The model for the process of spirtual growth is found in nature. When an acorn falls onto the ground and is covered by earth, it will not germinate until it is given the command to do so. Then after it has obeyed that command, it is given the next command in a sequence. Then after it has obeyed the command to sprout, it is given another command to grow roots, then emerge above the ground, start to grow branches, grown leaves and acorns etc. (I am sure I am missing steps along the way) The tree is not given then next command until it is in a position (stage of growth) to receive it. All of the commands are not given to the seed at once, but only as each stage has been reached and successfully accomplished, and for what is needed for the next step to be taken. Our spiritual growth only comes in steps, and can never be rushed. As it takes years for that oak tree to mature, so also it takes years for us to grow spiritually. If we attempt to force the tree to grow, or to skip one step, the tree will die. Growth is fawned by two aspects: light and magnification. A woman can clean her house and it looks clean to everyone. The floor looks spotless. But as the intensity of the light is increased, more dirt shows up. And if the floor is magnified more dirt will show up, and so it is with our lives.

Mysticism and eSoterism are in one sense opposites, yet complement each other well. Mysticism is of our doing entirely and involves willful action or arrangement in setting up a condusive environment both on the inside and outside of us, which creates a more fertile ground for eSoteric principles to function to reveal their beauty, insight and wisdom. ESoterism however is an aspect of spirituality that we have no control over it. In short, eSoterism is holds that the answers are WITHIN us, and that WE (collectively) are "God", whereas eXoterism holds that the answers are OUTSIDE of us, and that "God" is a separate entity outside of and separate from us. For more about the confusing concept of God in the OT, click the God tab at the top right of this page.

Mythology

Using ancient Egypt as a model, they had no religion, and in fact, there was no word for religion in their language. But they did have myth, and it was understood by all Egyptians that the characters in the myth did not literally exist. A religion is formed when mythology becomes literalized. Mythology itself is harmless, and is beneficial to us spiritually because it contains veiled truth and meaning in its allegories and symbols. The danger is if mythology is taken literally. There are no contradictions in myth, and their are no sacred texts in myth.

There was never any contention in early Christian history between different mythological understandings of Christian texts because up until around the 5th or 6th century "Christianity" was still understood as mythology. In fact, there was no literal (exoteric) Christianity in existence early on. Literarism took a few centuries to develop and then become predominant. It was not until the 5th or 6th century that a literal interpretation of the characters and events in Christian texts had taken over and it had become a religion. Many versions of stories about Jesus existed as mythology early on, which are sometimes (rightly or wrongly) referred to as gnostic. Gnosticism can also be referred to as eSoteric, while a literal interpretation of Christianity should properly be referred to as as eXoteric. EXoteric Christianity which claims a literal interpretation of the people and events as literally happening is an impossible position to hold because if we interpreted the Bible as literal it would self destruct because of the contradictions and problematic nature of the information in it.

The divergence of views in the first few centuries of the development of Christianity was greater than it is today. Some of these texts have been recovered in what is referred to as the Nag Hammadi Texts, named after the location in Egypt where they were found (One even later discovery is The Reveation of the Magi which scholars claim was written a few centuries after the Nag Hammadi texts). There was no fighting between people then who had different understanding of Christian mythology. They understood it as mythology and got along well together regardless of their views. An interesting book to read in this regard is The Gnostioc Gospels by Elaine Pagels. A book which details the true history and development of Christianity in the first few centuries is Creating Christ by Valliant and Fahy. There were other gospels including The Gospel of Mary, The Gospel of Philip, The Gospel of Thomas, and The Gospel of Judas, in which Judas was the only enlightened one among the twelve disciples. Rome began its campaign to stamp out eSoterism in all forms, and the burning of "heretical" books began and eSoterism went underground. (Hence someone had hidden the texts found at Nag Hammadi)

The Christian threesome of Joseph, Mary, and Jesus is patterned after the Egyptian threesome of Osiris, Isis, and Horus.In this regard I recommend the book Christianity, and Ancient Egyptian Religion by Ahmed Osman. (Osman, a Muslim scolar, wrote another interesting book called Moses and Akhenaten). Much slaughter and horrible acts have been committed under the sanction of Christianity and the Jewish religion, and "God", (or god) but not under Horus or Egyptian mythology, or any other mythology. Here is a key difference between Christianity and mythology. For those who have left Christianity, I would suggest considering mythology and mysticism as alternatives. Any mythology is good whether Greek, Celtic, Egyptian, Nordic, African, Babylonian, etc. (the oldest creation myth is Babylonian: The Epic of Gilgamesh). Myth contains information which was veiled in order to protect its integrity while at the same time make it self perpetating and self preserving as the public would pass it on from generation to generation without realizing that they are being used to perpetuate this information. A good book to read on the subject of how mythology works is When they Severed Earth from Sky: How the Human Mind Shapes Myth by Elizabeth and Paul Barber.

Gaining a Better Perspective

There is no God "out there" who is separate from us. If someone has not drank anything in 3 days and are on the verge of death, and we give them a jug of water, we have then given them life, and have taken on the role of "God". We ourselves are the only God that can exist, otherwise the concept of "God" is abstract. A dying man cannot survive on abstractions. Likewise there is no "devil" or "satan" out there. To find satan we only have to look in the mirror. (satan means "adversary" . . . we oppose ourselves) There are no evil spirits "out there". Any evil spirit that we are bothered with is from within us, or more accurately understood, is us. Here are a few lecture by manly Hall relating to the spiritual realm and its dangers.

Dangers of Psychic Self Deception
Thought Forms and Psychic Ghosts
Obsession and Spirit Possession
Opening the Doors to the Invisible
Living Universe Beyond Our Sensory Perceptions

One indication that we are on the right path spiritually is when we discover that our reason for wanting to do what is right is no reason at all. In other words, we are not trying to avoid "hell" or score points with "God" or earn anything, nor have any alterior or selfish motive, but simply because we are happiest when we do it.

THE Principle

Live your life according to this one core principle:

If whatever action or inaction I am considering taking or not taking, or whatever attitude I have, or whatever words I choose to speak or not speak, am I responsible and mature enuff to accept any and all possible consequences of this action or inaction, whether present or future?

We only need this one principle to live our lives by. All other (relationship) principles are based on this one core principle. If everyone in the world lived by this principle there will be no violence, hatred, hurt, or damage to any people, animals, property, no pollution, and no destruction of the earth.

I recommend the book Self Unfoldment by Disciplines of Realization by Manly Hall. In this book he shares a process of how we can build character and integrity in our lives. Here is an MP3 lecture by Manly Hall on Personal Growth

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